I'm only a human being

Gue sebeeeel, keseeeeel banget! Emang sih gue gak sepatutnya kayak gini, but I'm only a humanbeing. I have feelings. I do feel sad mad or angry. Please understand me.
Gue gak tau harus mulai darimana. . Karena this problem is kinda embarrasing for me to share to u guys. Adalah mantannya cowo gw, namanya sebut saja Lita, she's such a bitch. Selama jadian ama cowo gw, dia gak pernah, lemme repeat, GAK PERNAH bertemen ama temen2 cowo gw, which is one of them is also my elementary school friend. But after she had problems with my boy, dia nyari muka ama temen2 cowo gue, ngedeketin mreka, act like she has known them for years, dan berusaha mengadu domba cowo gw sama temen2nya. For once, it works! Tapi stelah all the blablabla things, cowo gw baikan lah ama temen2nya. She really pissed me off. Gue tau, gue gak sepatutnya kayak gni krn setiap orang berhak bertemen dan memilih temen sesuai keinginan mreka, gada yg boleh ngebatasin, tapi as I said before, I'm only human. I'm not a robot that can't feel anything.
I try to always smiling on people, but they don't even know, they don't even care, that my heart is bleeding hardly inside. I need someone who can help me through this hard times. But who? Help me please.

P.S : bunny, I love you forever, but I don't know if I can take it any longer. Please understand me.
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