Lunch

I'm having lunch right now with my mommy and my bunny is heading here masalah2 yang gue hadepin sekarang sama my bunny gw anggep sebagai cobaan dari yang Maha Kuasa. Nugo bilang anggep aja ini cobaan yg dikasih buat nge test kita di 6 bulan ini. Semua tergantung kita, mau dillewatin bareng2 atau sendiri2. Dan dia juga udah ngeyakkinin gw supaya percaya sama dia, and he said that no one can take him away from me. Gw sayang banget sama dia, nothing in this world can compare him. Sounds cliche right? But that's true. Hehehe. For those bitches that trying hardly to take him away, fuck you! He's mine! Hahaha :) ciao
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I'm only a human being

Gue sebeeeel, keseeeeel banget! Emang sih gue gak sepatutnya kayak gini, but I'm only a humanbeing. I have feelings. I do feel sad mad or angry. Please understand me.
Gue gak tau harus mulai darimana. . Karena this problem is kinda embarrasing for me to share to u guys. Adalah mantannya cowo gw, namanya sebut saja Lita, she's such a bitch. Selama jadian ama cowo gw, dia gak pernah, lemme repeat, GAK PERNAH bertemen ama temen2 cowo gw, which is one of them is also my elementary school friend. But after she had problems with my boy, dia nyari muka ama temen2 cowo gue, ngedeketin mreka, act like she has known them for years, dan berusaha mengadu domba cowo gw sama temen2nya. For once, it works! Tapi stelah all the blablabla things, cowo gw baikan lah ama temen2nya. She really pissed me off. Gue tau, gue gak sepatutnya kayak gni krn setiap orang berhak bertemen dan memilih temen sesuai keinginan mreka, gada yg boleh ngebatasin, tapi as I said before, I'm only human. I'm not a robot that can't feel anything.
I try to always smiling on people, but they don't even know, they don't even care, that my heart is bleeding hardly inside. I need someone who can help me through this hard times. But who? Help me please.

P.S : bunny, I love you forever, but I don't know if I can take it any longer. Please understand me.
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Additional

boleh kan gue jabarin perasaan gw? Krn cuma lewat blog ini gw bisa share semua.
Gue gak kuat, ngebayangin cowo gw yang udah 1 kampus & 1kelas ama mantannya si Lita* itu, dan ditambah lagi, setiap gue diajak kumpul ama temen2nya dia, kenapa harus ada si Lita itu? I'm sick of this. My mom once said to me, "jangan ngejalanin hubungan sama seseorang yang belum sepenuhnya lepas dari mantannya karena itu bakal nyakitin kamu." I ignored that, coz I thought I could passed all the problems that I was going into. Karena gue yakin cinta gue lebih besar buat dia, dan gue gak bakal ngerasa apa2 karena gue yakin dia sama gue selamanya. Tapi sekarang gue ngerti, gue emang yakin kalo cowo gw gak akan macem2 krn he hates his ex so damn much, I can see in his eyes,but gue ga bisa, gak kuat, gue bahkan gak dianggep ama temen2 cowo gw, dan si Lita yang nota bene HIS EX,lebih dianggep oleh mreka. Gw gak minta dianggep, but please bunny, can't u just stay with me and not wif them? I know it sounds crazy, it sounds selfish, so I decided to keep all this feelings inside my heart and in my blog. Sorry guys.
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11.22 pm

I thought I was the one who knew you inside and out. Everything that you've done, what you did, I thought I was the one who knew you the most. But now I know that I'm wrong. Sorry.
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Long time no see

I've been busy with all the family things. Have u all guys follow my twitter? Haha I give u my link ; http://twitter.com/erinkarenina
Be there or be square! Hehe it's already late night so I probably gonna continue my post tomorrow. sleep tight fellas! ♥
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